WE went into survival mode and to some extent, still abide there. The kids' lives are so busy with school parties, projects, and once a week clubs, i can become very overwhelmed with the amount of commitment that needs to come from me. I feel like I have x amount of energy and creativity to give my family.... but not much is left over for anyone else or anything.
I would like to think of myself as the star "room" mom, But honestly, that's not my goal.. I'm trying hard enough to be just a "star" actual Mom. What that means is we have dinner, school on time, lunches made, uniforms clean. I know not incredibly glamorous... but it'll do. I have learned a perfect word since having the stroke... ready????!!!
NO, I cannot fill in
No "I cannot bake a thousand cupcakes
No, I cannot drive for a field trip (b/c really I can't... it really is a no)
No, we cannot make five commitments on one Saturday
No, we are not participating in a fundraiser
No, I cannot volunteer at church
No, we are not buying our kids a million presents for Christmas
Any mama out there, understand where I am coming from? I cannot be everything to all human groups and I refuse. My executive functioning was really affected in the stroke...it has come back a lot!!!!! I am keenly aware of riding the over stimulant line. I thrive with organization, a plan, and tranquility.
Well there it is my first blog post back from 2015. It's a new day!